You haunt my dreams
In the night I swear I hear you
Familiar footsteps
Spiced cologne
Soft breathing
Gentle touches
Figments of my imagination
My subconscious understands
You should not be gone
The familiar dip in the bed
Your side is always vacant
But on quiet nights
Every night
I swear I feel you
Pressed against me
Holding me close
Butterfly kisses to my neck
Whispered words
Soft
Reassuring
To stop my tears
Stop the nightmares
Your leap replaying on loop
I dare not open my eyes
My mind no longer sane
But morning always comes
And my eyes must open against my will
I am always alone
Forever alone
I would go with you
To you
Wherever you are
Wherever we go
My best method
My surest method
My quickest method
My service arm
Is missing
Other methods
Less messy methods
Are open to me
But none as fitting as the gun
I came to Baker Street
And was reborn by a bullet
I should leave by one
But until I find it
My service arm
The sweet midnight torture
Must be enough
Author's Note: Fan poem in the POV of the BBC's Sherlock version of Dr. John Watson, set after the Reichenbach Fall in season 2, episode 3.